Another year of hardly anything to say...

Today is Nov 22, 2008. It's been over a year since I last updated this blog. I keep asking myself why I even set it up. At the time I felt like I had a lot to say and was happy for the outlet. Unfortunately, life has been kicking my butt and I am running out of words to say.

Today I am unusually sad and I feel like I could run away. Nothing new has happened, but things haven't changed much either. I won't spend my writing time telling you about my situation because frankly, that won't change it. Just know that I am far from where I expected to be at this point in my life and I am very unhappy about it.

They way my life is going now, I don't know if I'll ever have the chance to write my book or make the cards i want to make or sew the clothes I want to sew or if I will just continue in this fog of life.

It's a fog because I can't see where I'm going and I can't see what's coming at me. As I write that statement I am beginning to get in touch with my real feelings. I can't see what's coming and I can't prepare or plan for it so it always, yes I use that word, always knocks me off my horse. Maybe by now i would learn to stay off the horse!

I am actually feeling pretty sorry for myself at this point but I think if I continue to write, I just might be able to pulled myself up out of this.

I have wants and needs that go unfulfilled every day and I can't do anything about it. Or at least I don't have the energy to fight for what I want. So where do I get the energy? That will be my question for the week. I will look and listen to hear the answer from the universe! When I get the answer i will post it.

WHERE DO I GET THE ENERGY?